Last year I wrote a blog about when life happens to you while you are trying to live a healthy lifestyle and lets just say that piece didn't do much to motivate me, in fact I totally gave up the idea of healthy living after I wrote it.
Naturally then the worst followed and before I could even snap out of it I had boobies on my back. My clothes didn't fit but instead of doing something about it, I kept feeling sorry for myself and the weight piled on. My eating habits didn't help much either. Beginning of this year while doing a series of posts on my BORN TO CONQUER page about conquering thyself, I had to take an honest look at myself and admit to all those things in my life that I wanted to change and my weight was one of them.
I started the year weighing just over 80kg and it is not pretty. I don't like how it feels and worse how it looks. So I made a commitment to myself to end this year weighing 65kg and the work began for me. I started by downloading videos on my phone and an app that tracks my distance and time everytime I go jogging. I'm proud to say that I've been active for 5 weeks straight, that means 5 times a week consistently I have either run or done half an hour of exercising, anything from skipping to squats to abs. This is the longest I have been consistent with any form of working out in over a year so that's progress. I have gone from running 5k in about 40 minutes to now doing it in just under 30 minutes. And yesterday I did 12km in an hour and 10 minutes which is my farthest distance to date. And you know what people told me about once I start and commit to it, it will be difficult to stop, they were right. It's not easy, waking up at 5am to go running it's still a mission but I am forging ahead and every time I manage to go further than I did the last time, I become encouraged to go even further.
I haven't been able to stay off the junk food completely but that is a work in progress and my biggest battle still remains walking away from a glass of Coke but even that is not enough to discourage me. You see what the last 5 weeks have taught me is that if you can win the battle in your head then you are halfway there. It really does start with telling yourself that you can beat the limitations that exist in your head.
My biggest supporter through all this has been my fitness crazy friend Allo Love, who has always told me that it's doable even when I didn't believe it and I don't think she knows just how it motivates me sending her screenshots of my new records and having her celebrate that with me. I am thankful for her support, it keeps me going. And every time I log onto that Nike App and see that she's put in another run, I can't help but be inspired to jump out of bed and do my part.
When I started this journey I made a vow to stay off the scale. I don't want to become obsessed with numbers and reaching my goal weight so unfortunately at this stage, I can't share if I have lost any weight. I don't look any different from when I started and my clothes still don't fit but I feel alive and I feel like I can conquer the world. When this year ends, I vow to myself that I will be wearing shorts and I am not giving up till that happens. The journey continues and everyday that I wake up and run or skip or do some aerobics, I know that nothing but what I tell myself and my level of commitment will stop me from reaching my goal.
